You're Never Over.

The days are cold living without you and the nights are even longer.You may be gone but you're never over. Words cannot even begin to describe the pain you've caused  and continue to cause me. Leaving me wasn't part of our plan. But I guess no one can predict the future. Although I still find myself mad at you I must appreciate and give thanks for the time I had with you. No, I shall not say goodbye to you yet, or ever. Rather I'll see you again one day. Thank you for raising me and supporting me. Thank you for tucking me in every night and making sure my nightlight always had batteries. Thank you for late night movies, taking me to the park, teaching me how to skate and doing my hair for school. I miss these little things everyday. Not does one sleep go by that I don't thank the world for giving me you and not does one rise go  that I don't hate the world for taking you. Everything happens for a reason, well for whatever reason they had, it wasn't good enough. It doesn't get easier with time and whomever said this has clearly not lost someone as special as you. It's more something I've learned to live with. So I thank you for making my ten years with you something I can hold onto for always. I'm blessed to have a guardian angel like you. For you, I'll be sure to make you proud and for the moments that I don't, forgive me for I'm only young and stupid. Leaving me in this world without you is nothing but hell but I can't wait for the day that I get to join you in heaven. You're the reason. The reason for who I am today, who I will be one day and most of all the reason I wish to succeed. I owe it to you. Thanks Mom.